Astounding! This is so powerful,! William, you have spoken so mush in so few words.Your gift for writing is amazing but your gift of caring for people and to truly help others is the greatest gift of all! Mimi and I love you! G’dad
I eagerly look forward to your writing each week. Every one inspires and motivates me. Thank you for being brilliant, wonderful you and making such a difference in the lives of so many, including mine. Love, Kaffy
William, you should feel very proud of yourself. You are doing a good thing, and if just one person is helped by this, you have succeeded. I hope you are doing well. 💙
William, you are so generous to share your journey so that others may be helped. What a selfless gesture. I hope that your gift encourages others to feel comfortable sharing when they need help or are not ok. Best wishes to you, Molly Bourne
While I laid in bed last night finishing installment 10 of semi-colon, Doors, I realized that in 6 hours It will have been exactly 1 week since my wife went upstairs to wake our son, as she does every school day, to find him unconscious, non responsive with cut marks on his arms and wrists. What has been a nightmarish 7 days began with a trip to the emergency room. The doctor felt confident the prescription medicine he overdosed on wouldn’t kill him but said it would be awhile to work it’s way out of his system. When I googled the symptoms from overdosing on adderal, there were about 10, including hallucinating, paranoia, anxiety, hyperventilating, among others. He checked all of them off his box.
The next morning when he woke from being sedated, he FINALLY opened up to me and started talking about what he was feeling and had been feeling for what he says has been his entire life. We, being his immediate family, always knew there was something not right, something always bothering him. After asking a thousand times, a thousand different ways, he would never tell us anything about his situation. We had him see psychologists and other doctors and he knew how to answer the questions to make it seem as though he were ok. They all said he was fine.
On Wednesday of last week, a bed finally opened for him in a hospital over 4 hours away more than half way across the state. Since he was an involuntary condition patient, we had no choice in the matter as to where he would go. First bed open was where the state would take him (in a grayish Dodge Durango). He is allowed one phone call to us a day and there is NO visitation “due to covid”. We have yet to talk to a Dr. about his condition, but have been contacted by nurses regarding consent for prescriptions.
When we speak, he seems to be in a better place, says he doesn’t want to hurt or kill himself, was thinking irrationally and wants to come home. I know you can’t just snap your fingers and make a lifetime of feelings disappear, so I am cautiously optimistic about his tone. Do I feel he is in a better place than 2 weeks, 2 months, or even 2 years ago? Definitely. He has finally told his story and tried to explain his feelings and actions that he has felt his entire life. He is on the right road and headed in the right direction, but still has a long way to go. Our job is to make sure he keeps moving and doesn’t go off route.
If anyone reading this has suicidal thoughts or similar feelings as my son, or William, please tell someone, get help. I know my son has a long way to go, but I can tell you for a fact, he is in a better mental place right now than he has probably been for most of his life.
Astounding! This is so powerful,! William, you have spoken so mush in so few words.Your gift for writing is amazing but your gift of caring for people and to truly help others is the greatest gift of all! Mimi and I love you! G’dad
William, would you be up for being on a podcast? It's athlete focused but I just keep coming back to your story and know so many who are going through this, including athletes. @readybreakpodcast https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/ready-break/id1593215888 https://podfollow.com/1593215888 You can reach me at deedee.hagner@gmail.com
I eagerly look forward to your writing each week. Every one inspires and motivates me. Thank you for being brilliant, wonderful you and making such a difference in the lives of so many, including mine. Love, Kaffy
Thanks William for sharing - IMO this is the best of the series thus far - and best of luck to you young man
William, you should feel very proud of yourself. You are doing a good thing, and if just one person is helped by this, you have succeeded. I hope you are doing well. 💙
William, you are so generous to share your journey so that others may be helped. What a selfless gesture. I hope that your gift encourages others to feel comfortable sharing when they need help or are not ok. Best wishes to you, Molly Bourne
While I laid in bed last night finishing installment 10 of semi-colon, Doors, I realized that in 6 hours It will have been exactly 1 week since my wife went upstairs to wake our son, as she does every school day, to find him unconscious, non responsive with cut marks on his arms and wrists. What has been a nightmarish 7 days began with a trip to the emergency room. The doctor felt confident the prescription medicine he overdosed on wouldn’t kill him but said it would be awhile to work it’s way out of his system. When I googled the symptoms from overdosing on adderal, there were about 10, including hallucinating, paranoia, anxiety, hyperventilating, among others. He checked all of them off his box.
The next morning when he woke from being sedated, he FINALLY opened up to me and started talking about what he was feeling and had been feeling for what he says has been his entire life. We, being his immediate family, always knew there was something not right, something always bothering him. After asking a thousand times, a thousand different ways, he would never tell us anything about his situation. We had him see psychologists and other doctors and he knew how to answer the questions to make it seem as though he were ok. They all said he was fine.
On Wednesday of last week, a bed finally opened for him in a hospital over 4 hours away more than half way across the state. Since he was an involuntary condition patient, we had no choice in the matter as to where he would go. First bed open was where the state would take him (in a grayish Dodge Durango). He is allowed one phone call to us a day and there is NO visitation “due to covid”. We have yet to talk to a Dr. about his condition, but have been contacted by nurses regarding consent for prescriptions.
When we speak, he seems to be in a better place, says he doesn’t want to hurt or kill himself, was thinking irrationally and wants to come home. I know you can’t just snap your fingers and make a lifetime of feelings disappear, so I am cautiously optimistic about his tone. Do I feel he is in a better place than 2 weeks, 2 months, or even 2 years ago? Definitely. He has finally told his story and tried to explain his feelings and actions that he has felt his entire life. He is on the right road and headed in the right direction, but still has a long way to go. Our job is to make sure he keeps moving and doesn’t go off route.
If anyone reading this has suicidal thoughts or similar feelings as my son, or William, please tell someone, get help. I know my son has a long way to go, but I can tell you for a fact, he is in a better mental place right now than he has probably been for most of his life.
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